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After an encounter with a homeless man, a high school graduate becomes obsessed with the idea of doing heroin, challenging himself to try it just once. A bleak tale of addiction, delusion, and flowers....

Title : Wallflower
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ISBN : 34452640
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Number of Pages : 102 Pages
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Wallflower Reviews

  • Char
    2018-11-02 08:59

    4.5/5 stars! Wallflower is a novella rich in character development. Unfortunately, the main character develops in a way that does little to improve his life, and the reader is along for the ride. I'm not going to get into the plot, because this isn't a book report and because I don't want to be a spoiler. I will say that this story rang true to me and I think it would to anyone that has ever known a person with an addiction-be it drugs, alcohol, gambling or anything else. The whole "I'm not addicted", or the "I'm too strong to let any drug take over my life" arguments are what I've heard and even said myself at times. But it wasn't true. I knew it, and everyone around me knew it. My addiction was only to nicotine, (I'm saying only to a drug that kills almost 500,000 people per year in the U.S. alone), but it was a powerful addiction just the same. By the time I admitted that itwasan addiction, it was too late, and I was hooked for another 25 years before I finally quit for good. How does a person get to that point? What could be done to prevent it from happening, if anything? These are all valid questions surrounding addiction.Wallflowerdoesn't answer any of these questions, but it does tell the story of one man and tells it poignantly, with feeling and truth. Highly recommended! You can get your copy here: Wallflower*I was provided a free e-copy of this book by the author, in exchange for my honest feedback. This is it.*

  • Frank Errington
    2018-10-27 14:16

    Review copyA few months ago, I got to read Chad Lutzke's Of Foster Homes and Flies and quickly realized I had found a new author worth following.There are many roads to addiction and Wallflower depicts one young man's decent to dependence.Chris, Eddie, and Kent are killing time after high school and before the rest of their lives and fall into "urban exploration." In one of their forays into an abandoned housing development they become involved in an altercation with a vagrant.Later, Chris returns alone and strikes up an awkward relationship with the junkie in hopes he could safely try heroin with someone who's been there and done that.Why would someone even start down such a path? Chris explains the start of his journey. "Without knowing the man before me, and with no personal experience with drugs harder than the occasional joint, I was naive about most of it. And it puzzled me to no end why someone would give up everything they had just for a high."The chapter titles alone should give you an idea of how things progress. Temptation - Succumbing - Denial - Delusions - Headfirst - Consequences - Revelations.A quick note on the cover for Wallflower. It was designed by Lutzke himself and once you've read this novella you'll clearly see how it visually captures the story within.Strongly recommended.Wallflower is available in both paperback and e-book formats through If you subscribe to Kindle Unlimited you can read it at no additional charge. Also, if you are an Amazon Prime member you can read it for FREE using the Kindle Owners Lending Library.From the Author's bio - Chad Lutzke lives in Battle Creek, MI. with his wife and children where he works as a medical language specialist. His fictional work can be found in several magazines and anthologies including his own 18-story anthology anthology, Night As a Catalyst. He has written a collaborative effort with horror author Terry M. West, The Him Deep Down. In the summer of 2016 Lutzke released his dark coming-of-age novella Of Foster Homes and Flies.

  • Jeremy Hepler
    2018-11-12 11:15

    This is the second time I've read Chad's work, and he has great voice and pulled me in from the get-go both times. Along with the temptation and struggles brought on by addiction, WALLFLOWER also touches on various aspects of being a teen on the cusp of adulthood such as unbridled curiosity and the sense of invincibility. Great read on many levels.

  • Nev Murray
    2018-10-20 09:18

    "This man is a genius when it comes to writing a book. He is not just an author. He is a storyteller in the truest form of the word. When you read his stories, it is as if he is in the same room as you, actually reading the book to you. His words are just wonderful."See here for the full review:Wallflower

  • Cory Cline
    2018-11-05 08:52

    Chad Lutzke has a style that’s hard to ignore. He has this understanding of the darkness that floats under the skin of the human psyche as he pulls his readers into a surreal portrait of everyday horror. Wallflower spins torn webs down the dark hallways inside the mind of an addict as its main character, Chris, allows his instinct for self-preservation to become smothered by Heroin. Chris could be anyone’s friend, daughter, or son. He’s smart enough to know better and yet he can’t deny the surging pull of the drug once he begins a dangerous mentorship with the homeless man he and his friends find in an abandoned housing project. As Chris falls into the drugs comfortable embrace, the horrors of how quickly this all-consuming drug takes over his reality become only too evident. Lutzke creates a dark vision of a realistic horror. It’s beautifully told and powerful, with a creeping sense of doom that invades every crevice of reality. His story is as captivating as it is disturbing, allowing little room for doubt about where it is headed… There is no smoke and mirrors in this story. It’s not easy to find a relatable stance with a character who tries something so dangerous out of innocent curiosity, but don’t forget that everyone makes mistakes for reasons incomprehensible to those who value their lives. The reason doesn’t matter when the effects are the same, and if readers are familiar with how heroin and drugs like it can destroy a happy life, they will experience the familiar stings of heartbreak and sorrow while reading this. It’s not easy exploring the pain that others feel when they are sliding out of control. Sometimes it’s hard to create a believable and sympathetic character that chooses to make bad decisions, but Lutzke faces it head on and hits a home run that will make readers feel uncomfortable while they think about the addictions they have witnessed in their own lives. The silken promises of a drug like Heroin are often rotting at the core and Lutzke’s seductive web of horror can only be escaped by getting to the end… unless the spider gets there first.

  • Barbara Haynes
    2018-11-16 08:56

    Who's Afraid of Heroin...A little won't hurt, right? This Book is a front row seat to the downward spiral of drugs. It is gritty and real. Although not this author's usual style, it is a horror story, none the less. I highly recommend this book and especially, this author. Well done, sir, and congrats on 25+ years.

  • Robin Lee
    2018-11-13 09:13

    Void: empty spaces, vacant, blank, unfulfilled.First, I would like to say I love the cover art, as it speaks volumes about the story. This is much different from author, Chad Lutzke’s last novel that tore at my heart strings. Using his strong narrative, he conveys the everyday realistic horror and pulls the reader right into the ugliness. It’s about addiction, a slow descent into “Hell” and the Demon chasing you is “Heroin”. The story shows you how you develop into an addict and there is no “one time only”. He manages to capture the “beginning of the end” not for one, but both. It was hard for me to connect or sympathize with the young man, Chris. I think because I knew his story and he made a choice. More than just “Curiosity Killed The Cat”, which is proverb used to warn of the dangers of unnecessary investigation or experimentation. The temptation for Chris is there and though he had everything going for him in life, he takes a wrong path. I was more sympathetic to Dave, already a junkie, because of not knowing his story. Yet, through his own delirious actions while high, shows you pieces of a life he left behind. Dave is haunted by a pure vision of innocence that perhaps he once held. Perfect research went into Heroin addiction, right down to the different street names/slang used. The many ways Heroin can be used, to infections, track marks, and collapsed veins. Then the instant rush felt once injected, the floating high, dreams, love and for some even pain relief. As with most addicts, the ending is sad and bleak like the wilting of a “Daisy” because there is no Gardener here to save the flowers.Chris has just graduated High School and wants to enjoy the summer. Due to his family, he has various options for a bright future. He even gets to use one of Dad’s cars. Right now, he just wants to have fun with his friends, Kent, and Eddie. Looking for that next sense of danger or adrenaline rush they spend some afternoons, exploring abandoned buildings, homes and run down factories. So, after hearing a tale about a mysterious junkie, the three adventure out to Limewood, an abandoned housing development that lost its funding. So, they go into the last house on the left. (That alone sounds ominous). The one sporting graffiti of a “Black Fly” and once inside the game of temptation as begun for one.Reviewed by

  • Bettina Melher
    2018-11-04 08:03

    Brilliant!Chad Lutzke has done it again! Wallflower is a dark story that will grab you and haunt you for a long time after you’ve finished reading it. It starts with such innocence and then turns dark very fast. Wallflower is a disturbingly realistic tale of a naïve and delusional young man and his obsession with trying heroin just once. Do yourself a favor and get this book. You won’t regret it. Disclaimer: I was sent a copy of Wallflower for review purposes. This is my honest review.

  • Sue Ellen
    2018-11-19 15:57

    Heart WrenchingI'm really at a loss for words. This story really captures what a monster addiction is. It robs you of everything and what remains is a ghost of yourself. Every addict has a story and I'm not talking about their drug of choice and where it took them. They have dreams and aspirations and a life not yet lived. Many unfortunately cannot see past the stigma and choose to assign labels. It'll never happen to me. Keep on telling yourself that.So thank you, Mr. Lutzke for a realistic writing of this devastating disease. It has touched my family and, like you, I am grateful for a life worth living.

  • Mary Grissom
    2018-11-01 11:03

    ChillingIt's a story that every person should have their kids read. Scary and sad. I was hoping for a better ending though.

  • John J Questore
    2018-11-20 14:56

    Chad Lutzke – remember that name so that when it appears on the New York Times’ Bestseller list you can say you were reading him before he became famous.If you’ve read my review of his last novella – Of Foster Homes and Flies – you know I was completely blown away by his writing and character development. So I was very excited to see he put pen to paper and wrote another novella.I was lucky enough to receive an ARC of Wallflower; and after reading it, I am sorry to say I have to retract my previous comment of being “blown away” with Of Foster Homes and Flies. I misspoke at the time because I truly didn’t know what being “blown away” until I read this one! (I’m kidding, by the way, both are phenomenal – just exaggerated the sentiment to make a point).After I finished reading Wallflower, I immediately wrote Chad with the following – “What a wickedly f**ed up story! Thoroughly enjoyed it.” In fact, I wrote that while still on the treadmill at the gym; that’s how much I enjoyed the story. I couldn’t wait to let him know.Wallflower is a story about a high school graduate who comes across a homeless heroin addict that’s squatting in an abandoned house he broke into with some friends. After leaving the house, he becomes curious about the effects of heroin and decides to try it – in a somewhat controlled environment – with the delusion that he can handle one hit and not get addicted.What follows is the downward spiral of a boy in denial, the grip of addiction, and the destruction of his psyche. Thankfully, I have no direct experience with addiction (except for books), but I do have friends who are recovering alcoholics, and had one friend who was a functioning alcoholic. I can tell you from seeing those people trying to cope (actually found the one friend drinking stolen aftershave just for the alcohol), that Chad is spot on with his descriptions of desperation and addiction.Warning – a story like this cannot have a happy ending, no matter how hard you try. Addiction can only end up in one of three ways: Death, remaining addicted until the inevitable (see the aforementioned), or getting clean, only to still have the demons circling, always looking for you to fall off the wagon. However, that being said, it would not be a bad thing if Wallflower became required reading for all high school aged kids.

  • Shelly
    2018-11-12 08:13

    Another great tale by Chad Lutzke, I want more!

  • thebonebreaker
    2018-11-12 16:16

    Wow! What a story! Do not start this book unless you have at least an hour to spare. This story will grip you, immediately, from the prologue until the very end. (I started this book at 11 last night, figuring that I would read a chapter or two, before bed... Needless to say, I was riveted to the story and just had to finish it.)This story is as addicting as its subject matter, and just like the habit, you want to stop (reading) but you can't!I love everything about this book, from the cover (designed by Lutzke himself) to the Chapter Headings (very revealing in their downward spiral).I will definitely be reading more of Lutzke's work!

  • Paula
    2018-10-20 08:13

    Sometimes horror stories are real! The story opens with Chris and his friends who have all just graduated from high school. The boys have now reached a cornerstone in their lives and are ready to have a little fun before the whole adulthood thing kicks in. There are rumors of a junkie squatter living in an abandoned housing project and they decide to check it out.Oh, the mistakes we make as kids can follow us for a lifetime. There is indeed a junkie living in one of the homes and as disgusted as Chris finds himself viewing this man’s living conditions there is also a curiosity. What could cause someone to be so drawn into a life of drugs that he can’t walk away? I’m sure some of us has experienced this sense of invincibility the… “Oh, not me! I am stronger than that.” type of attitude. But, alas, it doesn’t always work in our favor.The story reads as a bit of a ‘coming of age tale’ with dire consequences. It is one that will make you reflect on your own choices in life and perhaps thank God you didn’t follow through on all of them. If you know anyone that has or you yourself have suffered from addiction, then you know it is not something you can just walk away from. It’s a life sentence that will always be beckoning you… just one more time.

  • Shannon
    2018-11-15 11:14

    Wow! Wallflower is a taut story about addiction. I don't want to give away a lot, but will say there is a nice buildup to the main plot. It starts with the main character and his friends going to an abandoned house and encountering a homeless man. The story takes off from there, and I think really hits all the notes of what addiction entails. Another terrific, well told story by Chad Lutzke.