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Storytelling and visionary medicines are fundamental aspects of the human experience.. The latter takes us to places beyond ourselves, into realms of the mind unplumbed, unfathomable, and often unpleasant. The former allows us to share such experiences with each other. It unlocks personal experiences from the individuated shell and releases them into the collective, wherebStorytelling and visionary medicines are fundamental aspects of the human experience.. The latter takes us to places beyond ourselves, into realms of the mind unplumbed, unfathomable, and often unpleasant. The former allows us to share such experiences with each other. It unlocks personal experiences from the individuated shell and releases them into the collective, whereby we can learn from them together. From the author of Decomposing The Shadow: Lessons From The Psilocybin Mushroom,/i> (2013) comes a captivating and vulnerable exposé into the dark recesses of the human psyche. This book follows James W. Jesso as he recounts in three of his most turbulent and dark experiences with visionary mushrooms. Through story, he takes us along as he travels through depression, self-loathing, inadequacy and feeling unable to love, and out the other side into confidence, courage, and inspiration. From daytime trips with friends gone sour, beyond a night rife with psychotic breaks, and into the watery confines of facing depression in a sensory deprivation tank, The True Light Of Darkness is a vehicle of insight on what it means to ask to be broken in the hopes of finding wholeness....

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ISBN : 9780991943586
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Number of Pages : 156 Pages
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The True Light of Darkness Reviews

  • Maia Snowdrop
    2019-05-17 16:25

    Honest, thought-provoking and clearly written from the heart, James Jesso’s second book illuminates a much-needed alternative way for writing on the psychedelic experience. As the previous reviewer mentions, there is an increasing body of work regarding the psychotherapeutic uses and potentials of psychedelics. There is also a rich history of writing on the connection between entheogens and religious/spiritual experience and practice. Jesso manages to straddle these two established strands, adding an accessible voice to what can sometimes be quite inaccessible academic debates, while also asserting the validity of experience of those who, like himself, are creating their own frameworks of interaction with these substances. The demarcation between ‘legitimate’ medical/psychotherapeutic and religious/sacramental use on the one hand, and ‘illegitimate’, ‘recreational’ (and in most cases illegal) use on the other, though ostensibly in the interests of harm prevention and reduction, can also be read an insidious justification of the denial of the individual’s right to explore their own consciousness. Books like this perform a vital function in revealing the profound limits this denial places on the positive development of humankind and the systems with which it lives in symbiosis, and in offering hope and intellectual drive towards the healing of the individual and the collective.

  • David
    2019-04-29 17:14

    In the author's note at the very beginning of this book, James W. Jesso lets his readers know upfront that while "The True Light of Darkness" was written for the play of reading and storytelling, it should primarily be considered a serious cautionary tale. Although its true that psychedelics can be used as a tool for psychotherapy and alleviating depression, he writes,"The cautionary elements of this book are to expose how dark, painful and potentially damaging these experiences can be when they lack certain support structures, such as a guide, a supportive community and an understanding of one's psychology."Later on in the author's note, Jesso mentions that the deepest intention behind writing the book was "greater health, understanding and wisdom for all of us through sharing stories and welcoming conversation." The book is structured in three main parts, which explore the outcomes of three separate challenging experiences that Jesso had with psilocybin mushrooms.The first chapter in the trip trilogy of chapters is titled "2 Friends, 5 Grams, and a Box from Cusco, Peru" and it describes a high-dose mushroom experience that Jesso had with two other friends, during a period of his life when he had recently worked through the feeling of lacking a sense of general direction. That feeling left him confused and perplexed about the purpose of life, but he identified that his life purpose was to write a book about his experiences with psilocybin mushrooms, which eventually became his second book, "Decomposing the Shadow: Lessons from the Psilocybin Mushroom." However, that book had not been finished when he embarked on this trip—in fact, he was still in the process of writing it. After making what Jesso considers to have been a "terrible breakfast decision" (consisting of "a toasted kamut grain bun with butter, jam, and hemp seeds, followed by a big bowl of oatmeal and a cup of black tea"), a wave of nervous anxiety washed over him, eventually leading to a series of challenging events that escalated quickly. These events included things like the development of paranoid feelings about a dirty box from Peru, the thought of being attacked by germs in an unhygienic bathroom, and the belief that the Internet was alive and under immediate threat. At one point in the trip, one of Jesso's friends asked him a question about the direction his life was going that sends him into an existential crisis of sorts. However, he ultimately ended up learning that he desperately needed to change the way he approached his writing project, which turned out to be beneficial for his wellbeing.The next trip trilogy chapter is titled "Discovering the True Light of Darkness." It takes place after a thirteen-month practice where Jesso worked with psilocybin mushrooms once per month, always during the full moon, and always solo. He noticed that after more than a year with this practice, he was a noticeably changed man—and for the better. So Jesso decided to break the model he had established and embark on a psychedelic journey outside of the full moon ceremony framework, with one of his close friends, and prior to the December 21, 2012 (a date that was predicted by many, including Jesso, to bring about great change). Both Jesso and his friend were experiencing feelings of anxiety and depression and wanted to work with the mushroom to learn how to alleviate those feelings. Jesso makes a point to describe the custom blend of tea that he consumed at the beginning of his trip, which I found to be an intriguing side note and something to research further on my own in the future. After working through several challenging thoughts during a meditation, a walk in nature, and a productive mind mapping session, Jesso was able to identify the source of his negative emotions and made plans to change his behavior so that he could live a less stressful and happier life.The final chapter of the trip trilogy is titled "Facing Forgiveness; Embracing the Shadow," and it takes place in a unique location: a float tank. Once again, Jesso found himself battling an especially rough round of depression and decided to combine the use of psilocybin with the distraction-free environment of a sensory isolation tank. Although I have not had any personal experiences with float tanks at the time that I write this review, I am aware that they are intense on their own, without the addition of any psychedelic compounds, so it seemed to me to be both extremely courageous and also somewhat foolish to work with the mushroom while floating. However, I also knew that Jesso is not a reckless psychonaut and would not embark on a journey of this caliber without ensuring that he would be in a safe, supportive environment that would minimize any potential physical risks that could occur during the experience. He describes the entire evening's events, including the humble beginnings of consuming a chocolate drink made with the mushrooms, a simple-yet-transformative walk to the float center, and the wild contents of his psychedelic trip inside the tank. Once again, Jesso ends up working through psychological material that was hidden within his unconscious and finds himself healed by his experience with the mushrooms in the tank.I really enjoyed "The True Light of Darkness" and found it to be a brutally honest inside look at Jesso's more challenging psilocybin experiences. As someone who has had a fair share of challenging psychedelic experiences, I appreciated how forthcoming Jesso was when describing the things he had to work through (and the methods that he employed to do so) and how these psychedelic experiences positively impacted his life. If you're interested in psychedelics, and especially if you want to know how challenging they can be, you owe it to yourself to check out this book. At the very least, I encourage you to head over to and look at all of the work that he has produced, including three books, a collection of writings, a podcast called Adventures Through The Mind, and a series of videos. As a fellow writer and content creator, I definitely look up to Jesso and strive to create content that is similar in both quantity and quality. Perhaps one of these days I will write a book that is as honest and insightful as "The True Light of Darkness," but for now the psychedelic community is blessed to have books like this one.

  • gemsbooknookGeramie Kate Barker
    2019-05-02 17:18

    Won this Through Goodreads First Read.Found this book quite interesting. Was able to relate to some of the emotions and situations. I think it is a good look at the darker side to psychedelic mushrooms. Glad I got the chance to read it.

  • Jack Oughton
    2019-05-23 18:25

    Accessible modern shamanism, I would love to meet this guy. I identified a lot with what he was talking about, and what he seemed to be going through. IMHO this is worth reading a few times.

  • James Jesso
    2019-05-21 14:19