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Having been previously described as an "aggressively personal poet", Trista Mateer takes this to heart and then to paper in her first collection. Presented more or less in the order it was written, the poetry in Honeybee is in turns bitter, tender, and messy. Following the course of a little more than a year, the poems showcased in Honeybee chronicle the on-again off-againHaving been previously described as an "aggressively personal poet", Trista Mateer takes this to heart and then to paper in her first collection. Presented more or less in the order it was written, the poetry in Honeybee is in turns bitter, tender, and messy. Following the course of a little more than a year, the poems showcased in Honeybee chronicle the on-again off-again process of letting go....

Title : Honeybee
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ISBN : 9781500224950
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Number of Pages : 108 Pages
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Honeybee Reviews

  • Olivia
    2019-05-04 17:12

    This fucking book. THIS. FUCKING. BOOK. I don't know what I expected going into it because I had never read any of Trista's work but, oh my sweet lord, I read the first poem and I was hooked. I finished it in like, ten minutes, and cried at almost every poem. Somehow, this fucking incredible girl that I have never met in my life managed to capture all of my feelings and wrap them all up into this cute little package that is Honeybee. I'm the type of person who will ignore things and pretend my feelings aren't there but when I read those poems, let me tell you, my heart was like, "yo... Olivia... you've got some shit to deal with. And Trista fuckin' Mateer pretty much explained all of them." It was amazing. Best revelation ever. I think the best part about all of the fuckin' heartbreak that happened in Honeybee was that I had felt all of it, too. For the ten minutes I spent completely gluuuued to this book, Trista and I were going through everything together. It was like we were best friends who just happened to have synced our romantic issues somehow. It reminded me that no matter how shitty and alone I feel sometimes, I'm never really alone. It reminded me that the crappy things I go through can be turned into beautiful art that could make someone else realize they're not alone, too. Trista is a genius in terms of connecting to complete strangers through poetry and I will continue to read everything she writes and probably cry at all of it.

  • Romie
    2019-05-13 14:02

    I didn't expect to enjoy this as much as I did, but here I am.Some books of poetry just speak to you, you don't necessarily know why, but they do. This one did. This is the one book of poetry I didn't know I needed until I started reading it.It's beautiful, it's elegant ... but it's also a heartbreak, waves of tears, hours of wishing for something that isn't anymore. It's poetry that speaks to humanity.It's small but poignant at the same time. It's the first time I've read poems about bisexuality, about biphobia, bi-erasure ... these are things we need to talk about, even in poetry.I am so glad this found its way to me!You may have been part of the healing but you don’t get to be a part of what’s healed.4/5Thank you Netgalley for providing me an e-copy in exchange for an honest review.

  • Katie McNelly
    2019-04-24 16:19

    Not bad, not great. Not mad I read it, not something I connected to emotionally. Not recommended, but then again just not my cup of tea.

  • Jenny
    2019-05-17 09:52

    This just wasn't for me... There was no poetic tone to any of the poems; they all read like Facebook statuses or notes/emails. A lot of the poems seemed redundant, also: seemed like some lines from one poem were repurposed in another poem and such.

  • Ylenia
    2019-05-11 13:10

    Poetry is always really difficult for me to review because it's such a personal experience, but I'll try anyway.I read this "collection of poems about letting go" because I was going through a break-up. Well, I still am and I will be for a long time. But the specific reason why I got this book was related to me being suddenly single, not anything else.I started this at the end of July and finished at the end of October. I can see that I'm better than I was when I first started this.I was expecting to be devastated while reading these poems, instead it felt very underwhelming and that's the reason why I first put it down in August.With time, I realized that not every break-up story is the same and I simply couldn't relate. I obviously found some similar feelings but I couldn't relate to the more personal stuff.I feel like this type of poetry, with less lyrical stuff and more skips that don't make much sense, is not for me. And I'm not being mean with the "more skips" thing, I honestly don't know how you call that technique. Reading some poems I was like "Oh, this person has potential" and then I was thinking the opposite while reading the one after that. It just wasn't well balanced. A bit overrated, maybe, or I simply didn't get it.

  • Cecilie K.
    2019-05-05 14:55

    It reads like getting your heart broken all over again, like sitting there with this book in your hand and suddenly remembering all the break ups you ever went through, turning the last page and feeling like you’ve just gotten closure for some of them. I spent a good part of the beginning of the book falling in love with how Trista described the relationship, how they seemed so sweet together and then desperately hoping the book would end with there not being a break up at all. Then the slow ache of trying to get over someone you loved with everything, and phrases like “She does not remind me of anything;everything reminds me of her.”But this isn’t a book filled to the brim of flowy language and well written metaphors and similes (There are those too though, don’t worry, it’s beautiful. )There are hard hitting truths like:“I am the bad thing.(I was not always the bad thing. Sometimes it was you.Sometimes it was just the two of us together.) ““You are not defined by the people you walk away from, and you are not defined by the people who walk away from you”What I loved the most is the gradual slide in the poems, from the love poems, to the achy heartbroken poems, to the hard truth ones, to the poems where you wonder why this person was worthy of love poems in the first place ( “the night you told me that the more people I kissed,the dirtier I would become”) it reads like a break up feels.Read it in one go, put the book down, then show it to everyone you meet that day, read aloud over the phone, read it again and then review it. It’s a good book filled with good poetry and if you’re anything like me you might cry a little.

  • Coreen(AsThePlotThickens)
    2019-04-22 15:10

    This was a compilation of LGBT poems. They were beautiful but I honestly think that Mateer's previous book The Dogs I Have Kissed was just better. Honeybee was a compilation of love that was lost and bittersweet memories with someone you thought you'd spend your eternity with.

  • Savanah
    2019-04-24 13:54

    there it is, my first poetry book of the year. and it resonated. the poet recommends reading it in one sitting and i agree completely. here are some lines that really stuck out to me:"You said you were afraid of losing me, like I was a thing that could be misplaced.""You said: 'most days, I pity you more than I love you'. I just love you.""There were nights I was so jealous that the thought of you on your knees for Jesus made me angry. Baby, I don’t think you understand the level of insecurity it takes for someone to want to write God angry letters.""i. It is as hard to be the one who goes as it is to be the one who stays. People always talk about getting left behind, but nobody talks about how difficult it is to pack up your books and dig your bobby pins out of couch cushions. It always feels like you are digging for a reason not to open up the front door. Every time you leave the house, it gets harder to walk back in. One day, you won’t be able to— and"

  • Kristina Romero
    2019-05-09 11:00

    There is really only one way to read this book and that is to consume it all in one go, which is exactly what I did. The poignancy is lost if you try to take small bites. It's easy to glean a familiar feeling from this collection of musings and fragments of a complicated relationship. The story is her own and a very personal one and yet you're going to feel like you've been there before. Maybe it's because you feel that you can relate. Maybe it's because she simply does such a damn good job of pulling you into her world- her secret moments with a person obviously so dear to her. Either way this book is going to leave you feeling some sort of way, maybe for some special person. And if I read between the lines correctly, I think she wants you to know that you should never consider this a bad thing. Know the people that make you and don't ever forget them.

  • KayCee K
    2019-04-28 12:55

    First poetry book of 2018 and I'm blown away. If this is a peek of poetry I'm going to read this year, then bring on the poetry because, man this book is amazing. Trista poetry style paints photos of life with such a bright, truthful way that I couldn't stop reading. I read this book all in one setting because in a way it kinda reads as a story being told. I enjoyed the mix of different lengths of poems. There are one-liners to long poems. There are a few poems that made my heart hurt because of the truth in them and because knowing that this is still things people have to go through. She writes with such fact and passion.My favorite poems in this book are "On Writing My First Book Of Poetry", "The Baker's Lament", "A Wish", & "Semi-Factual Thoughts On Space". These poems are still on my mind even after a few days have passed. My favorite line by Trista in this book is, "Your blush, a cascade of color from ballet shoes to fairy floss." I don't know why this is my favorite line but I just love her word choice, the picture that develops is simple but sweet. This book is filled with many lines like that one and filled with powerful truths. About small-town lives, family, lifestyles, love, relationship, LGBTQ, and more. There's a line in the blurb and in the book, "Honeybee chronicle the on-again off-again process of letting go." and that line could be any more right. It's not just letting go of a past love, but letting go of drama, life, and the caring of what people think of you.Therefore, this is a must-read for anyone. Looking to try poetry than try this one. This is a gem of a book!I received a NetGalley ARC of this book in exchange for an honest review. This doesn't in any way influence my opinion on it. So, this is a 100% honest review by me.

  • adaline
    2019-04-24 12:54

    “I still have a lot of growing to doand I know there is more room for itin your absence.”Unfortunately the contents of Honeybee aren't exactly up to par with that pretty cover. I went into this knowing nothing except that it was a poetry book, and was disappointed to find that it's not even really poetry at all?? I'm not sure what to even describe the writings as-- there's no stylistic elements, or anything even moderately reflective of a poetry style. It wasn't even in that "hitting-enter-after-every-word" tumblr-esque format. It was just paragraphs of words?? It felt very much like reading somebody's journal entries rather than a work of poems. I did like that a few poems centered around the author identifying as bisexual and the biphobia that she encountered, because they were the few works that conveyed emotion and a true poignancy. But besides those few writings, everything else felt dull and repetitive. Maybe I'm just heartless, but I truly don't understand how one can dedicate poem after poem to a single person who evidently made the author feel worthless and invalidated throughout their relationship. Overall, Honeybee was just not for me, and I failed to understand both the format and content of the poems. For those who have experienced a similar loss + situation, perhaps the book will provide comfort, but I was personally unable to connect to Mateer's writing. *2 out of 5 stars*Thanks to the publisher for providing an e-arc via netgalley! This in no way influenced my review, and all thoughts are my own.

  • ThePhoenix93
    2019-05-09 13:01

    This stabbed my heart a hundred times, but boy was it worth it! To finally come across a poetry book with substance and, wait for it... ACTUAL POETRY! I know, I'm shocked too! Yesterday I went on a little poetry reading spree, and I couldn't for the life of me find a good poetry book. So, when I finally stumbled upon this little gem, it was so refreshing, I could hear my mind being blown after reading just the first poem. By this time I was STARVING for some good poetry, and I just wanted to eat this whole thing up at once. So, naturally I stayed up until 4 am to finish this, and now I'm writing this review sleep-deprived and extremely tired, but I REGRET NOTHING!

  • Melissa Jennings
    2019-04-22 12:05

    As someone who struggles with letting things go, Honeybee was a real wake-up call. Trista has a powerful way of creating poems that are incredibly personal AND relatable to the reader, and not in a generic way. Genuinely, I felt like some of my own thoughts were in this collection. Trista’s poetry is refreshingly original and I always find myself in awe of her creative metaphors and parallels. Honeybee is filled to the brim with intricate imagery that I’ve personally never read before. Trista also returns to the same metaphors and reinvents them in this collection, and I am amazed every time.

  • Belenyesi Krisztian
    2019-05-06 12:03

    This book. For someone who read "The dogs I have kissed" and was sort of familiar with her writing, I still was taken by surprise from the first poem. I shed a tear or two (A dozen or two dozen, more accurately), and need to say that it really touched me in ways that book haven't touched me in a while. It portrays the several stages of break-up thoughts, and the whole process of growing through the pain, accepting everything and in the end seeing that it was for the better. From hating the person to appreciating that they put some space between you. 40/40 would recommend. Loved it. *Although, might not be a book that everyone likes. Whatever floats everyone's boat.*

  • K.Y. Robinson
    2019-05-02 14:13

    Trista’s always cuts a sista open and mend me back together. She has such an eloquent way of writing it makes my mouth foam with jealously. Buy all of her books! You won’t regret it!

  • Elizabeth
    2019-05-17 17:01

    "Everybody thinks it’s just spoiled romance that breaks your heart. They never consider the bad days and the kitchen scissors and the way rain looks smashed up against a window pane, the way people mill about in train stations, the way it feels when you walk down to the mailbox and always find it empty."And it was this part of the book that let me know the author was truly a poet, and not just someone writing poems. This heart is a poet's heart and what a wonder it is to hear how it beats.The only issue I had with this was the comma being placed outside the quotations, but I can't ever seem to silence the grammar police in my head. Sue me.

  • Caitlin Conlon
    2019-05-03 15:04

    This is the most captivating collection of poetry I've ever read. As recommended, I sat down to read it all in one sitting, but I found the poems just slipped away without me trying. This collection is so, honest. It's raw. Trista takes you through the story and you feel like you're trying to let go with her. It's messy and at times repetitive and it's brilliant because this is everything letting go is. This is what letting go is supposed to feel like. For me, this wasn't individual poems. It was a heartbreaking story written so beautifully it makes you want to cry.

  • Kate Fletcher
    2019-05-09 16:19

    I've read and re-read this book at least fifty times, and it always always always tears me apart in the best ways no matter where I am in my life. Trista Mateer's writing is brutally honest and emotionally devastating, and I am always eagerly checking her blog for more writing. She opened me to the wonderful world of Where Are You Press, and I couldn't be more excited for her second collection of poetry.

  • Taylor
    2019-04-26 17:05

    I'm at a really emotional part of my life and picking up these books of poetry has been therapeutic for me. Each one is incredibly moving, beautiful, heartbreaking, but real. I easily relate and these are my favorite types of books, movies, etc. Things that just make me feel like I'm human and not the only one feeling all these emotions in my little life.

  • Jasmine Darcy
    2019-04-28 13:53

    2.5 stars.I did not expect poetry to look like a story. Honeybee completely subverts the traditional structure of poetry and I'm still deciding whether that's a good thing.

  • Laura Ashley Laraque
    2019-04-30 11:51

    Every page took my breath away! This book personifies the true emotions that you go through when trying to let go of someone; the thoughts that race your mind constantly. Her writing is just so beautiful to me and my favorite piece was " What I Wish Someome Had Told Me About Leaving" ! I literally felt like she was talking directly to me. Such a great read!

  • Giulia
    2019-05-03 08:51

    Unpopular Opinion Time 🐸☕️Actual rating: 1.5 ⭐️This...was not really my type of poetry. It is a rather random thing to say but...according to me, there was no magic in these poems :/Favourite Poem:COMING HOMEIt took me too long 
to realize it wasnotromantic(, tender, or healthy)to love someone else
more than I lovedmyself.

  • Hazzie
    2019-04-30 10:59

    4 / 5I've never read any of Mateer's work before but I will definitely be looking out for more. This book is raw and I relate to it on so so many levels. If you've ever had your heartbroken and taken a good deal of time to heal, this book will speak to you.

  • Laurel May
    2019-04-23 17:03

    this poet deserves a happy ending!!

  • Karen Goldman
    2019-04-29 12:17

    Finished this poetic exploration of grief and sexuality in one sitting. While I feared that a book of poems about a former lover might seem whiny or self-indulgent, I was impressed with the tenderness of the narrator. Through a series of short, connected poems of many forms, the speaker explores her own sexuality, remembers the good times and bad with her former lover/best friend, and tries to forgive herself and her ex. As an eighth-grade teacher, I find the text too mature for a whole-class study, but would recommend it to individual students. Language is very sensual, with repeated sexual innuendos.

  • Jennifer
    2019-04-29 14:54

    This book was absolutely beautiful. A book of poetry about heartbreak and love from a bisexual woman who couldn't let go. Or took a long time to let go. She moved away, stopped talking to her and still couldn't keep the poems from flowing. They were all wonderful and I loved it.

  • Megan
    2019-05-22 15:17

    I'm in a glass case of emotion

  • Catherine M
    2019-04-27 12:55

    "She was the whiskey;a hard hit with a slow burn. I was the chaser. "- Trista Mateer, Even Though She Prefers GinI think my favorite thing about this collection is how it was more or less in the order the poems were written. It wasn't formed in a way to show a clear, and untrue, path from love to heartbreak to healing to letting go; because actually letting go is much more messy than that. I loved that it felt honest, more than many, many things. Not just the words themselves, but the way the entire book is formed feels like a confessional and release of a story that had to be let out. I like that almost all of the poems are written during the heartbreak and not pre-heartbreak. We don't get a huge backstory to who they were, in the sense of how they loved without the cloud of heartbreak over it, and it keeps the story where it needs to be. I couldn't totally tell if the girl she's talking about, Honeybee, was romantic or not as there's really only a few indications it was romantic which is really my main criticism. It felt like the first big heartbreak. And I don't know if it was or not for the author, but it felt like the big one and for that I felt a deep connection to it. It felt like Mateer was able to exactly pin down what it feels like to leave someone but still feel like they left you. She was also able to perfectly show the ups as downs of grief in heartbreak. I was a bit unsatisfied by the end. Which sounds idiotic because it's a collection of true poetry, but I wanted her to let go completely. To show she no longer loves that person. But at the same time, I think the last few poems were important because they show the realistic side of letting go - you never do completely. Favorite Poems:Your Heart (My Heart)Even Though She Prefers GinSo Are YouFirecracker OptimistYou Drunk Texted Me at 12:52AMMangled Up PromisesYou Still Loved Me Seven Months AgoI Got a Letter From Your SisterEverything I Feel is OkayYou Can Tell By The TasteComing Home

  • Brandon Chinn
    2019-05-14 11:20

    Honeybee is a book that demands things.It demands to be devoured. It demands that you read the book in one sitting so that you can notice the nuances of poems in the beginning of the book and poems that finish the book and how they connect into something beautiful and sad somewhere in between.It demands to be felt. Mateer has a way of carving words into the page, a way of making you feel an emotion so violently that did not exist within you seconds before. Each and every poem is beautiful and strange and different stand-alone, but together they form a story of beauty and sadness and wonder and loss and confusion that will speak to you if you are a heartbroken teenager or an older fellow riddled with the nostalgia of youth.It demands to be thought about. Honeybee seeps into you. It's sweet and sour and the love and loss on each page and in each poem speaks volumes in the absence of them. Between each poem, and after you turn the last page, Mateer's words come together to pull an emotional weight from you...and then give it right back.Honeybee is a book of poetry and it is a story of someone discovering themselves, other people, and the ways of life as it is: a mess, a jumbled state of smiles and frowns and words that can only be crafted by those talented enough to put them in the right order. Mateer excels in her appreciation of the craft and the raw, lyrical honesty of her words. Honeybee is a book for those people who want to feel something.

  • Barbara
    2019-05-20 10:03

    This book will break your heart, but in the best kind of way. I, like many others, struggle with letting go, and so I figured I would relate to the poetry in this book. I wasn't wrong. From the moment I read the first line of the note from the author - "you will meet people in your too-short lifetime who demand to have poems written about them." - I knew this book was meant to be in my hands.The author recommends reading the book from start to finish, all in one sitting and so that is what I did. You should do it too. You will be taken on an unforgettable journey of love and loss that will get under your skin and stir up your soul. From poems burdened by grief and confusion - exactly how one feels when a relationship has just ended, to anger and wistful regret and finally to acceptance that you are in a better place now without a dysfunctional relationship weighing you down.Throughout the day I like to open the book at random and see what poem I've landed on. Without fail, I have found words that seem to have been taken right out of my mind. I have cried and I have smiled and I have nodded my head silently in agreement as I've read these poems. I promise, if you have ever loved anyone or anything, even a little, you will do the same.