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2nd EditionLittle Boy Lost: Book FourLittle Boy Lost is the story of Jamie Mayfield, a golden-haired fallen angel. Dumped into a gay rehab center and shunned by his parents, the once-adored son of small-minded, small town people has had to find his own way in life. Jamie is astonished and dismayed when Brian McAllister, the boy he knows is the other half of his soul, explo2nd EditionLittle Boy Lost: Book FourLittle Boy Lost is the story of Jamie Mayfield, a golden-haired fallen angel. Dumped into a gay rehab center and shunned by his parents, the once-adored son of small-minded, small town people has had to find his own way in life. Jamie is astonished and dismayed when Brian McAllister, the boy he knows is the other half of his soul, explodes back into his precarious life. In the nearly two years they’ve been apart, not a day has gone by that Jamie hasn’t thought of Brian, no matter how hard surviving has been. How can Jamie protect Brian from the pain and brutalization in his life when he can’t even protect himself? Brian and Jamie will put every bit of themselves into saving each other, but Steven O’Dell isn’t the only obstacle keeping the boys apart. Jamie’s own self-hatred may prove to be their undoing. First Edition published by Dreamspinner Press, October 2011...

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Discovered Reviews

  • Susan
    2019-05-08 01:36

    3.5 stars...FINALLY...we get Jaime's point of view in this whole series. Jamie, broken, lost, afraid, helpless...I found the reunited relationship between Jamie and Brian still very juvenile...especially for 2 kids who have been through and seen quite a bit to make them grow up fast. But there was also something very charming and "preserved" about the way their interactions are written as well. (I could do without the every-other-line-I-love-you's...but that's just me...)To be honest, the whole middle of the book was a little too "Chase in Shadow"...why do these books have all these good looking porn guys all living together, casually f'ing each other, kissing each other just because, and calling each other "baby"...all in the name of "friendship". (Is that not weird to anyone else?)But the gem of this book is the twisted, violent relationship between Steven and Jamie. It FREAKS me out and I found myself frightened and paranoid for Jamie the entire time. JP Barnaby has found a pattern in this series...start strong, flub the middle, end with a bang, go out with a killer epilogue...leave the reader NEEDING to read on. And so...on...

  • T.A. Webb
    2019-05-17 06:57

    The fourth in the "Little Boy" books is one of the strongest. I have always been fascinated by the self hatred that keeps otherwise perfectly sane men and women with those who abuse them.This is part one (I assume) of Jamie's story. Once Brian finds him at the end of Book 3, we as readers are horrified to find out he is being used by a man who obviously is horrible, and is strung out on drugs and being prostituted and forced into porn. While Brian chooses to make them himself, he at least retains the choice to leave. Jamie and Brian come back together in this take, and once again lead us on the roller coaster ride that is their lives. Ms. Barnaby has said that there will be six books in this series. I figured it would be so - it has the feel of an extended trilogy, where the middle two books are in the form of the perilous quest where the heroes are tested, before the conflicts are resolved in the final chapter (in this case, the last two books).I hope so - these two boys have grown on me and I want a HEA for them after all they have suffered.Give this a read - it is wonderful, painful, and bittersweet.

  • Lori
    2019-05-21 01:59

    I was fortunate enough to meet J.P. last weekend at the GayRomLit retreat. Over drinks one night, I picked her brain about the research she's been doing for these books, which has been in-depth and no doubt a lot of fun :) We talked about how kids fall into the hands of predators, become addicted to drugs and end up having to prostitute themselves when they become indebted to their dealers for more money than they could ever earn quickly enough in a regular job. A comment made in another review has prompted me to write my review before I've even finished the book. The comment was regarding gay kids out on their own who need money and would make the leap to making pornos instead of asking their parents for money. Not to pick on this particular commenter but as a person who works with gay youth I'm hear to tell you that it's not such a huge leap. Quite a few of the kids I work with are not out to their parents for fear of being kicked out of their homes. Several come from low-income families where keeping the water and electric on one more month is a priority. Some are being treated for depression, anxiety disorders and most suffer from low self-esteem. The destructive behavior I see every week is heart breaking and very, very real. Factor in the shame these kids feel when they go off on their own with high hopes and big expectations, only to find that it's really tough out there and there is always someone just around the corner waiting to take advantage of you. A call home to mom and dad is not all that easy. The longer they struggle, the harder that call is to make. I understand her point that in Brian's case it would seem like he could have just called home and his adoptive parents would have helped him out. Most likely they would have told him they'd send him money to come home which was not something he was prepared to do. He already felt like they had sacrificed so much for him. It's not a surprise that he didn't want to make that call. The other thing to consider too is that Brian had found a family. His friends and his lover were making movies and getting paid good money for it. Again, not a surprise that when his back was up against a wall and it was either make money or go home, he chose to make the money. We aren't all lucky enough to have parents who will bail us out even if they have enough money to send us cash when we need it. J.P. did her research. She's heard the stories of how kids like Jamie get sucked into that life and how even kids like Brian, who may not be as desperate as some kids, still find their way into an occupation that some of us feel is degrading and demoralizing. And maybe for most, it is. But for others, it's good money for doing something they enjoy doing and there is no shame attached to it.

  • Serena Yates
    2019-05-20 04:00

    The fourth volume in this series is even more heart wrenching than the first three, but in a very different way. I was both surprised and delighted to find that Jamie’s voice takes over. Where we have so far followed Brian, this is the first time we see things from Jamie’s point of view. And, at this point in his life, it is not a pretty picture. The emotions get more intense, the stakes higher and the tension almost made me snap with this installment. I am in awe of J.P.’s ability to come up with surprises around every single corner. Jamie is so lost and desperate, and yet he still tries to protect Brian. It is amazing that he can still be so in love, even after all he has been through. Neither his parents’ rejection nor the Sunshine Center (what a horribly misleading name for such a cruel place) subdued his spirit, but the practicalities of life, once he left, have taken him prisoner. No longer able to believe in himself, Jamie has given up. When Brian finds him, he is so deeply miserable and dependent on his pimp and the drugs that he cannot even conceive of a different life. It takes him quite a while to ‘wake up’, and that journey is heartbreaking for all concerned.If you like raw emotions, situations that are so close to reality you get uncomfortable just thinking about how many people have to suffer through the type of situations portrayed in this book, you will love this book. I adore this series as much for the fascinating story it tells about Brian and Jamie, whom I love as though they were real people, as I love it for the emotions it lets me see, the experiences it makes me participate in and the absolute roller coaster wildness of their adventures. If you think you can deal with all this – give this series a go.NOTE: This book was provided by Torquere Press for the purpose of a review on Queer Magazine Online

  • Fiona Goodman
    2019-05-05 05:37

    Discovered is Book four in a six part series.1. Enlightened2. Abandoned3. Vanished4. Discovered5. Escaped6. Unknown to ReviewerThis book begins where 'Little Boy Lost: Vanished' left off but it is Jamie's voice that takes over. The first three books were written from Brian's perspective and I think it was a wise choice to present Jamie's experiences and perspective to the continuation of the story. The series follows Brian and Jamie through the sweet, tender longing of first love (book 1: Enlightened) and becomes progressively darker as the story continues. At this point I am so invested in their story there is no way I can turn back. The writing keeps improving as the young lovers grow into manhood and face the challenges that threaten them through prejudice, abandonment, and into the seedy side of life on the streets and porn industry in California.Little Boy Lost:Enlightened takes place in a small Alabama town where fundamentalist religion makes up the fabric of everyday life. As someone originally from the deep south who still has family there, I can attest to this reality. While a lot has changed for the better regarding race relations in my old hometown, homosexuality is still considered a choice deemed unnatural and against God's word by many. I have several family members and childhood friends who committed suicide due to the rejection of families, neighbors and community. In cases where there is a gay person who attends a family function it is commonly 'known' but something that is just 'not talked about' as my mother has explained to me about the attitudes of devout Southern Baptist relatives regarding their gay or lesbian offspring. I feel that beginning this story in such a setting adds a realism to the story and leads to an understanding of how Jamie is led into a world of abuse and as a result addiction to cope with his bleak and hopeless existence.I have read of many mothers' who were condemned (rightly so)as having rejected their gay children in m/m literature, but to me Jamie's mother is the most despicable of all. This is a woman who turned to religion as gratitude for having saved her unborn son (Jamie) from a potentially fatal accident but then goes on to punish and reject this son in a soul damaging manner in the name of her so called 'religious' beliefs... "The night she told me about the Center, with my father staring studiously at the blank tabletop, I finally understood that she cared more about God than she did about me. The realization was sobering. When I told her there was nothing wrong about my love for Brian that I needed or wanted to cure, she just smiled. It seemed that she had passed the point of slapping the sin from me".Jamie's mother's cruelty and his father's inaction sets the stage for the tragedy that becomes his life. It is only in the end of book 3 (Vanished) which immediately continues into this one that we learn the extent of Jamie's suffering. In book #1 I believed that 'Little Boy Lost' referred to Brian who not only suffered tragedy as a child but also violence and bigotry in book 2 (Abandoned). I am now convinced however, that the true 'Little Boy Lost' of the series is in fact Jamie. To me Jamie's circumstances seem authentic. There are countless teenagers who turn to drugs and sex as a way to survive. To me Jamie's story is both heartbreaking and real. Where before he seemed almost almost this ideal image as seen through Brian's eyes, Discovered breathes life and depth to Jamie which is achieved in one book more completely than the previous 3 were able to achieve with Brian. Together however, they make a provocative reading experience.Even the tone of this book feels different to me. Where Brian's 'voice' has a certain naivety even through his decadent period in Vanished, Jamie's 'voice' immediately hit me as desolate and hopeless, even upon seeing his true love for the first time after several years apart. I can honestly say that this is the first m/m novel that had me wracked with tears. Without this book the 'Little Boy Lost' series would be disjointed and incomplete. There may be some who have stopped reading this series because of books 1-3 one-sided perspective. To those who have given up, I say please don't, this book rescues it from that fate. I do feel this series needs to be read from the beginning. You will understand the tenderness and depth of love between these two boys by doing so. I will not lie and say this book ends with a HEA it doesn't. If anything it seems that book 5 (Escaped) may be as dark or darker than Discovered. This makes me want to stick with the story in hopes that eventually they will find it. I would like to see in the future both voices 'joined' in one book (even if only in book 6). Both Vanished and Discovered have ended in breathtaking cliff-hangers and there is a part of me that dearly wants to be put out of my misery. In this case it seems the adage "the course of true love never runs smooth" definitely applies. However, I have lost my heart to Jamie and Brian and in my case it is definitely worth the journey.

  • Natalie
    2019-05-08 00:46

    This is a tough one to rate. Brian has found Jamie, and it's not exactly the joyous occasion one would hope for. As a whole, this book was a painful, frustrating experience, but I could not put it down. I almost wish I were reading this series after it's all complete; it's going to be agony waiting for the next one. So: 5 stars for edge-of-the-seat storytelling and reuniting Brian and Jamie (finally!), minus 1 star for ripping my heart out and making me want to throw something.

  • Nic
    2019-05-18 07:40

    This 4th book in the series is told from Jamie's point of view. We learn more about the pain he has been in since being wrenched from Brian 2 years ago."That night, that last beautiful night I held him in my arms, was the last time I had been happy. Even nearly two years later, I could still remember every touch, every whisper in the dark, every promise. That night, that experience changed my life. It made me want to be a better man, to take care of Brian the way that he should have been cared for his whole life. I wanted to go to college and get a great job so that I could be everything he needed. I never knew that I had that kind of capacity to love anyone else."Jamie is living in a world of hurt and fear. Jamie and Brian may have found each other again but they are not together. Jamie tries to distance himself from Brian to protect him from harm.It is difficult to read of the heartbreak both these men are going through and I keep wanting them to have their happy ever after. Maybe in the next book? The whole series is difficult to put down due to the endings and epilogues which drag you straight into the next book.

  • Kaje Harper
    2019-05-07 04:47

    4.5 stars. This book was a painful read, especially watching through flash-backs as Jaimie made bad decisions over and over. But they were based on what he believed to be true, driven by fear, and understandable. I liked the reactions of the people around him, from Alex's compassion to Mike's distrust and anger. Another engrossing book that kept me up far too late because I couldn't put it down.

  • Joy
    2019-05-19 07:37

    Jamie has been found and he's been abused and exploited. Other than that, not a whole lot happens in this book. I feel the series is really dragging and this was more like half a book now. Also it's hideously depressing.

  • Jo * Smut-Dickted *
    2019-05-24 03:38

    I'm on book #6 but in sharing on a discussion thread why I am loving these books and just being so impacted by them I realized I wanted to note this moment in time. This series is deeply affecting. It does have graphic sex - and the first two books the boys are minors. I know some people don't like that - but it doesn't bother me at all or squick me out. Kids that age have sex quite frequently - for me if it is on page or off page -- it still is a factor. I have had this on my TBR for literally ever. Since the very beginning. The covers and title through me off. It's two boys - who become men. There is a lot of tragedy - and the emotional attachment I've formed to them is a real rarity for me. Homelessness, drug addiction, long term consequences of actions that affect daily life, prostitution, gay bashing -- it's not a light set of reads at all. There is no easy way out - these aren't Christmas stories. However interspersed are the development of friendships, finding your place in the world, and true love that goes through hell and back to be realized. You know me - I like dark. Not only in content, but in theme. It is similar in some ways to one of the authors other series (Aaron) but it is less deeply analytical in your head type. If that makes sense. It is not sophisticated writing - but in reading stories about this type of younger growing up character I prefer the more down home realism. The first narrator, Brian, is pretty optimistic but realistic too. The reason the series doesn't get suffocated by it's own tragedy is that his POV filters just enough for you to feel but not be overwhelmed by tragedy. The other narrator comes in Book #3-6 and is, by far, the more Little Boy Lost here. It is rare for me to read a complete book and be on the edge of my seat. I think I should get credit for a serious ab workout in reading this book because I rarely ever tense my core like this for quite so long - it's one of those books where you know something is going to happen and waiting for it is suspenseful. You still have hope - but deep down you know.There is NO easy HEA here. That would have ruined it for me completely. Wow I'm gushing. It's just a very good fit for my style and what I've grown to like. No inane dialogue. Strong cast of supporting characters who don't take over the book but really add to it. Tropes I love (hurt/comfort, abuse, etc). And with nearly 1200 or more pages boy has this been an engrossing read. The box set at DSP I think (and amazon) are only $9.99 and to me this is a huge bargain for this story. Warning: each book ends on a bit of a cliffhanger - so my advice is to buy all, buy the set. You will not want to put it down.

  • Andrea
    2019-05-19 23:34

    The fourth book of the series starts where 'Little Boy Lost: Vanished' left off. But now it's changed the point of view to Jamie. I liked Brian and were used to his thinking and point of view so it through me off at first. But with the story developing I don't even start to like the new point of view but I also see that it was necessary. No one else could show the fear, self-hatred and despair but Jamie.It was a very tough read. His situation and his past were shocking and tragic. But the toughest part to read was the despair,self-abandonment and fear he lives in. Brian tries his best to get back with Jamie. And without hearing Jamie's voice in this book I wouldn't understand why Jamie rejected the help. And that is very painful to read. because it's so well written and real for me. I couldn't put the book down and more than once I found myself in tears. I might have confused some fellow passengers on my train to work.I thought of taking a few weeks and books off before I finish the series. But after I've read the last sentence I started with no. 5 immediately.

  • Fangtasia
    2019-05-01 04:52

    Though it's the most maddening of all the books I've read so far in the series, this one is the absolute best. It's heartbreaking and incredibly frustrating. I had a hard time controlling the anguish at some of the decisions these boys made. And that's the problem, all of this is quite possible and believable, because these are kids. I guess I'm a Mom first and foremost, and that's why this one hit me so hard. There is one thing, towards the end, that really made me mad, a plot device that is just a lazy way to add angst to the story. Totally unnecessary. But the author has done such an outstanding job with everything else, in all the books, that I'll just let that one pass and ignore it. Five stars, for sure. On to the next one, Escaped. What am I going to do when I finish the last one? Probably go back and start with the first book all over again, just to prevent the Brian/Jaime/Mike/Alex/Emilio withdrawal.

  • Diane
    2019-04-29 07:37

    This really is a powerful series, it breaks your heart what the characters go through and when you read the news, well, you realize in some ways, the experiences and events are not necessarily fiction, which only breaks your heart again!After Jamie's introduction in the first book, this was tough to catch up to him two years later and the toll those two years have taken, as much as you understand the frustration of some of the characters with him, you also know enough to have compassion for it....while your heart breaks a little more!More of the secondary character stories came out in this book, which was great (although I'd still welcome full books on these characters - how about Emilio, does he get a HEA?).For the journey of first realization of who you really are, the growth and growing up, this is an amazing series that I would recommend to anyone. It is well written, the characters are real & developed (both the main and secondary characters), and the story completely pulls you in....I am so hooked to this series!

  • Randy Wiggins
    2019-05-26 02:39

    Book 4, Brian has found Jamie and the series has changed point of view to Jamie. This through me off at first because I was so into seeing things from Brian's eyes, but as I read I began to understand the ned for this changebecause Jamie's story could only be told from his own POV.Jamie has been taken in by an abusive man who uses him in every way possible, keeping him drugged up and beaten down. He has lost all self esteem and sence of worth.Brian tries his best to get back with Jamie but Jamie's "manager" has other ideas. The book has an awful lot of violence and sex but it fits the story.This is not a happy ever after book, not even a happy for now book. Bittersweet, maybe. If you can't deal with sad stories you might want to look elsewhere, but you'll mis a good read. Do not read these books out of order because you wil be lost yourself.

  • Loveeac
    2019-05-20 00:36

    My heart hurts so very badly for these boys. So much happens to them throughout this series. Some of it is within their realm of control, while other things very much aren't. I honestly don't know which is more difficult to read, but all of it makes me want to hug them and tell them it'll all work out in the end. It just has to, because if any two guys deserve a happy ending, it's Brian and Jamie.

  • Marsha Spence
    2019-05-22 05:52

    I read all 6 back to back and thank goodness I did! I really need more stars for Discovered. At least 6! The discovery of Jamie and the situation he was in was shocking and tragic. I was glad to finally hear from him though. And to find out what had happened while they were separated. I love the group of friends they have. Excellent!

  • Monika
    2019-05-25 03:49

    I thought I was battling the tears and heartbreak in the previous books but it wasn't anything like what this installment has put me through!Discovered is told through Jamie's eyes and I have to admit I wasn't prepared to read what that sweet boy went through after his parents dragged him away from Brian.It's funny that the most difficult read turns out to be my favorite story by far.

  • Nathanael
    2019-05-10 00:36

    Many times, I've found myself stopping reading, because I couldn't breath and I felt really ill in my stomach. Of all the things that are wrong in our world, manipulation is the worst. And I just couldn't detach my feelings from this book. But it didn't change the fact that this book was amazing.

  • Giselle
    2019-05-26 02:42

    Oh J.P., You're killin me here! ~sigh~

  • Penny
    2019-05-14 03:42

    4.5 starsVery dark, somber chapter. I'm looking foward to the happily ever after.

  • Lala
    2019-05-18 02:47

    Jamie in a self-destruction mode simultaneously broke my heart and frustrated the hell out of me.Oh, well. Let's see what happens next.

  • Kimiko Kotani
    2019-05-22 03:45

    Wow! This volume was even better than previous ones, and that's saying something. It really packs an emotional punch without being overly melodramatic.

  • Lora
    2019-05-07 05:58

    All from Jamie's POV. Just as moving as the previous books.

  • Connie
    2019-05-13 05:54 favourite book in the series so far.

  • Carol Lowe
    2019-05-04 07:37

    This is by far the best in the series! The pain these 2 guys have gone through is gut wrenching.

  • Page Crusherz
    2019-05-25 23:38

    Jamies POV here...I wasn't sure I'd like the short, but I did.

  • Smacktard
    2019-04-28 00:54

    Not worth the priceThe author has taken one book and turned it into a bunch of novellas , then priced each as though it was actually a book, and called the lot a "series".Worse, the plot is ridiculous,. IMO, the main characters belong on "I love lucy". They are that stupid.The author has his own issues with sentence structure and many common phrases are mis-quoted.I am no expert, but when I pay these prices I expect a better product.

  • Neet
    2019-05-16 04:00

    This is the 4th book in the Lost Boy series and it picks up where we left off in the previous book. As we know, Brian who really wants to stay in San Diego, not only to continue to search for Jamie, but because he has made good friends there, but because he has finally found a place where he fits in. He can't fathom going back to his small town in Alabama, even though he misses his parents and friends.Brian finds out that his two friends do porn and since he was laid off from his lawn service job and unfortunately, can't find anything else, decides he can do this. His test shoot is nerve wrecking guilt ridden affair, but he's hired by the small studio and is given enough money to pay his rent. The second performance is a shock indeed. There is a young man who he will share scenes with goes by the name of Dylan but there no doubt though the young man is skinnier and his hair is cut really short this is no other than....Jamie! Brian whose porn name is Scott can't believe it. He is is physically ill and runs out of the room. Micah assures that he didn't know Jamie was Dylan because he never did sex scenes together. The only thing is that they must not alert anyone that they know Dylan's true identity. You see Jamie's manager, Steven O' Dell is an angry and brutal man. He has physically abused Jamie ( he has the scars and black eye to prove it) and Jamie is also a junkie. We also discover the older man has taken the money that Jamie received from gay porn to deal him drugs and partially pay for his lifestyle. Steven will not let Jamie walk away, he supposedly loves him. Jamie loves Brian and will do anything to protect him from Steven's brutality, even if it means staying with a lunatic like Steven O'Dell. Brian on the other hand refuses to give up on Jamie, once he found him, he dare not let him go. What will happen? Well, I'm not just have to read this series to find out. It is truly addictive and a good read!

  • Brandon
    2019-05-28 05:59

    OMG OMG OMG. He’s alive!This story is about Jamie, the boy who Brian has been searching for, for about 2 years now. Jamie is not what we have known him from book 1. No Jamie has been through a lot and he’s broken and into things that make you want to cry. He’s not our same Jamie, he’s all grown up. Jamie got out of the gay hating church prison that his parents put him in when he turned 18 and was living on the streets for a while. When Steven O’Dell gives him food and shelter and love, Jamie thinks everything will be good. WRONG, after a while; Steven started charging Jamie for food, rent, drugs, that’s right, Jamie has been doing drugs and not the small stuff either. Jmaie was in debt to Steven now. Steven has abused Jamie and started to put him in adult films to pay for what Jamie has used. When Jamie finds out he’s doing a scene with Brian everything changes.Jamie is afraid for Brian, because Steven will do anything to keep Jamie from going anywhere. The more Jamie and Brian talk about living together and start a life together now that they found each other, Jamie is afraid for Brian and for Steven to find out. Finally, I was wondering when we’d get Jamies story. I loved this book, great story. I felt so bad for what Jamie had to go through, I wish I was able to help Jamie out before Steven got to him and completely ruined him. I would definitely read this series if you haven’t. This series leaves you page by page wanting more and more.

  • Gavin Stephenson-Jackman
    2019-04-29 06:39

    My G_d this series is addictive!A better review will follow tomorrow to late to continue now.OK now that I have little time here goes.Brian shows his true love and devotion to Jamie as he searches for a way to get Jamie away from his abusive/manipulative/controlling pimp/drug dealer/partner. Believe me any one of the words in the list would work in this case. Steven O’Dell, is truly a piece of work and Jamie is suffering under his control and abuse. Like any battered spouse Jamie thinks it safer to stay in the relationship and protect others from Steven than to find a way out and a way to heal. The two years he as spent away from Brian after his parents disowned him to a 'reparative therapy clinic' have left him with little sense of self worth or confidence in himself.Afraid that he is no longer worthy of Brian's love and affection he does what he can to try to turn Brian away. Brian and his friends will not let him go so easily.Needless to say that I got to the point where I could just not stop reading this story. In as short a statement as possible this is an excellent read.