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On a drizzly October night in the coastal town of Santa Cruz, California, seventeen-month-old Nevaeh drowns. Her mother, Alyssa Buchanan, is wild with rage and regret for placing her trust in her husband Seth, a former pro surfer who has a drug problem. Seth is adamant that he was clean the night of Nevaeh’sdeath, yet a dirty drug test contradicts his story. His parental rOn a drizzly October night in the coastal town of Santa Cruz, California, seventeen-month-old Nevaeh drowns. Her mother, Alyssa Buchanan, is wild with rage and regret for placing her trust in her husband Seth, a former pro surfer who has a drug problem. Seth is adamant that he was clean the night of Nevaeh’sdeath, yet a dirty drug test contradicts his story. His parental rights ripped and criminal charges looming, he battles to prove his innocence, love, and family devotion. Adding to the couple’s grief, their five-year-old daughter Daisy hasn’t uttered a word since her sister’s death. Alyssa turns to childhood friends and local police officer, Greg Wallace, for comfort and support. Although Greg portrays heroic devotion and justice, inwardly he swims with loss, narcissism, and explosive rage. He has long despised Seth and is more than willingto meet Alyssa’s needs that reach far beyond friendship.Into this fragile scene steps therapist Katherine Middlebrook. Her practice consumes nearly all her time–time that is even more precious now that her mother’s cancer has returned. She hesitantly accepts three new clients­–Greg Wallace, and Seth & Alyssa Buchanan, unaware oftheir intertwined history. Buried deep in Katherine’s past is the loss of her own child. She’s sure she can keep the boundaries of her past and her clients’ lives clear until their intersecting tragedies awaken old demons.An award winner in the South West Writer’s Contest for literary and mainstream novel, Out of Breath is an exploration of parental grief, addiction, compassion fatigue, and suicide; it’s the prodigal story of grace undeserved. Salluce’s expertise as a psychotherapist and grief specialist enables her to create dynamic characters that will leave you breathless as you jeer their shadow sides and cheer their heroic journeys....

Title : Out of Breath
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ISBN : 12971915
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Number of Pages : 265 Pages
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Out of Breath Reviews

  • Anne OK
    2019-04-26 07:28

    I can't even imagine losing a child - there just can't be anything worse for a parent. This book literally took my breath away. It was a difficult book to read. I cried and felt conflict and anger. I cheered, hoped and prayed that this young family would find a positive outcome in the end. Though life certainly is never the same, life does go on for those of us left behind - the ones who are left with a hole in our hearts. Though not a typical romance novel, this book does have a heartwrenching love story that will touch your heart.

  • Lydia
    2019-05-04 07:27

    This book had me from page one. The author's literary way of making the simplest sentence stand up and shout was enjoyable and left me wanting more, despite the tragic plot. The book is about a young, married couple with two beloved daughters, struggling to reconnect and let each other in. Seth, the carefree, emotionally absent husband and father is torn apart with guilt and scorned with blame when their youngest daughter drowns under his watch. The book chronicles the year following their daughter's death and the heartbreaking facts and decisions they are left with. Seth and Alyssa's grief is absolutely palpable in this story. I felt for each one of them throughout every page. Despite Seth's poor judgement, I sympathized with him immediately. And despite Alyssa's crass and irrational decisions, I feel her pain and love for her lost daughter and just could not place judgement on her due to her all-consuming grief. Scenes where she was left to wallow in her sorrow alone really got to me; I teared up for her on several occasions.

  • Babette
    2019-05-19 08:35

    I couldn't put this book down!

  • Ginger
    2019-04-24 09:34

    What an emotional read! I had to keep reminding myself this was fiction. I can't imagine losing a child, no matter the age. I actually learned a lot about the grieving process, the court system (due to one of the parents being a substance abuser) and mandatory counseling. Highly recommend this book. Even if you've never lost a child, this book will help you better understand those who have. One would have to be cold-hearted not to root for this family and want to see them pull through such a devastating time in their lives.

  • Frederick Brooke
    2019-05-20 07:25

    This is the story of a couple who lose a young child in a tragic accident. It’s a heavy topic, and as the father of three children I wasn’t sure I wanted to read it. But once I started, I couldn’t put it down. The author is herself a therapist and specializes in grief counseling. The tragedy has a catastrophic effect on the couple’s relationship, as is typically the case in real life. All sorts of blame games are being played, only they don’t feel like games. The older sister of the accident victim, Daisy, age 5, hasn’t spoken one word since the tragedy. The lives of the main characters are spiraling out of control, as each one of them in his or her own way retreats into an inner space that might still provide emotional safety.The book is set in Santa Cruz, California, a surfer paradise south of San Francisco. In this liberal town there is a good social infrastructure in place to help people like this young family. The court mandates counseling and therapy for both the mom, Alyssa, and the dad, Seth. The depiction of the therapist, Katherine, who brings her own deep dark secret into the mix, struck me as hauntingly realistic and at the same time poetic.As in this little comment at the end of a therapy session with Seth (Seth is blamed for the tragedy because he is a drug user and was getting high instead of watching the two little girls when they were playing by the pond): “’Try to see this as a wake up call.’ I know he wants more; reassurance that everything is going to be fine. Even if the charges are dropped, things will be far from fine, given Alyssa’s refusal to speak to him not to mention the grief that’s going to be kicking his ass for who knows how long.”As I was reading this book my eyes watered over many times, even in public places. I thought about why it moved me so deeply. It’s a beautifully crafted story of tragedy and redemption. Why do people so often need a tragedy before they will open their eyes? What will give them the strength and courage to recover and survive? Out of Breath tackles themes that will be familiar to every parent and every person who was ever afraid to confront their deepest fears. Prepare a supply of tissues, and read this book.

  • Justine
    2019-05-12 04:39

    Sometimes when I read a book with less-than-stellar writing, I can get past it-- usually because I love the characters, the plot is intriguing, creative premise, etc etc. With this book, however, my problems with the style didn't allow me to really get lost in the story. The author is a counselor, and it shows in her writing in both a good (she really knows grief & grief counseling) way and bad (she writes like a counselor) way. When I say she writes like a counselor, I mean that at times the style was WAY too clinical and "I am talking about this feeling" for me. She spelled out exactly how each character was feeling at each moment, bluntly stated what was happening in each scene, and left no mystery as to what the characters' motives and thoughts were behind every. single. action. Not to mention one of the characters was a COMPLETELY unlikable douchebag, which I'm not a fan of-- this guy has been Alyssa's best friend since childhood and she never noticed that he's single-mindedly obsessed with "possessing" her to the point that he disregards his own children?! I don't know about that. I did have an emotional reaction, but i felt it could have been stronger, given the subject matter (death of a toddler). This was probably because I wasn't allowed to feel the emotions with the characters because they didn't reallyfeelthem either, they just stated how they felt. It was interesting to read about a grieving family from the point of view of a counselor, but there wasn't enough novel writing in it for me. I'm still interested to see what comes next from this author though, her subject matter and emotional pull was enough for me to read her second work whenever that may come!

  • Jenn
    2019-05-14 04:33

    I loved this book! Seth, Alyssa and their 2 young girls seem like a perfect family except for one thing - Seth's marijuana habit. Suddenly their world is shattered when their youngest daughter, Nevaeh, drowns when Seth was supposed to be watching her. After Seth returns a positive reading for dope Alyssa vents her fury and grief at him, blaming him for their daughter's death. The only people she can trust are her grandmother, who raised her, and her oldest friend in the world, Greg. Seth is distraught with guilt. Meanwhile, Child Services become involved and Seth is forced to leave the family home and get treatment for his addiction. Both he and Alyssa are ordered to receive counselling. Against her better judgement, therapist Katherine agrees to take the case, opening old unhealed wounds from the past death of her own daughter. Throughout the next 12 months Katherine helps Seth and Alyssa understand their grief, and also to deal with the demons in their pasts. In doing so she also needs to deal with her own demons. Seth just wants his family back, but Alyssa doesn't know if she can ever forgive him for Nevaeh's death. Written in the present tense the book is narrated by Alyssa, Seth, Katherine, Alyssa's friend Greg, and social worker Leah. It is beautifully written, giving a real and poignant insight to the complexity of grief, and to the raw physical and mental anguish faced by parents when a child dies.

  • Marie
    2019-05-05 04:24

    Susan Salluce, author of "Out of Breath" has written a deeply moving story of a couple who loses their 1 1/2 year old daughter to drowning. Nevaeh's death a marriage with Seth drinking and drugging which is alienating Alyssia and pushing her closer to a childhood friend, Gregory, the police officer who arrests Seth for this drowning.The story takes us through dealing with the death of a child, emotions of anger, monumental sadness, blame, deceit, misplaced love and finding a way back to a safe place. With the help of Katherine, who, quite innocently turns out to be the psychologist to Alyssa, Seth and Gregory, the story takes some twists and turns. What makes this book believable is the way the psychologist is so believable - the writer, Susan Salluce has much experience in this field and it comes through in her writing. If you have ever been in therapy, you will know what I mean. A very sad story, heartwrenching and believable. I gave it five stars because of the writer's ability to convey this to the reader and keep the reader interested in what comes next. It made me pose the question, "What would I do"?

  • Judi Meadows
    2019-05-12 08:25

    Susan Salluce's Out of Breath is written with true to life raw emotion that will hold you captive to the end. Her multifaceted characters draw you in. Both Seth and Alyssa brought baggage into their marriage that creates struggles between them. She worries about their two little girls, Daisy and Nevaeh, when their daddy abuses drugs. On the heels of Seth’s promising to stop and regaining Alyssa’s trust they’re dealt a blow that shakes their world. Everything points to his guilt. How can she trust him now? Her childhood friend, Greg, is more than ready to step in and take Seth’s place. Can Seth and Alyssa’s marriage survive tragedy? Can Seth regain her trust when she’s full of fury, distrust, pain, fear and anxiety? Be warned! This book is not for the faint of heart.

  • Tracy Heater
    2019-04-22 11:32

    This book didn't make me cry and it's probably because I'd how Justine put it, it was written by a counsellor from a counsellor's perspective. I don't think that this really impacted the story since the author included Katherine, a counsellor. I've always heard that you should write what you know and I believe the author did a wonderful job depicting various stages of grief, addiction, recovery, guilt, falling down, and what it takes to get back up again. The characters are believable and honest. I would have given this 5 stars but for the typos and editing errors which I believe should have been caught by the editors and publishers. I look forward to reading another book by this author.

  • Lesley
    2019-05-18 04:34

    Okay so 25% into this! I like how the story tells all involves point of view. I think this author must be a therapist though. Writes like she knows what she talking about and not just got some background. Ok at the end it says she is a therapist. Knew it! Now that I am done. Good story and about the grieving process!

  • Kathy
    2019-05-09 07:28

    Grief counsellors, bad choices, small communities, puppy love and being an adult.Add to this the death of a child and false accusations, human spirit and human failings and the result is a well written account of a ghastly tragedy being worked through by several characters and coming form very different perspectives.

  • Krista
    2019-05-19 06:40

    Typically, when reading a book, I like the author to allow me to feel with the characters. I was told every step of the way what the character was feeling and why. This drove me nuts. The only exception was the wife's best friend and it was obvious we weren't supposed to like him anyway. The storyline was good, but the execution left me frustrated.

  • Suezq
    2019-04-29 09:28

    This book dealt with the loss of a child and all of the pain, guilt and blame that couples go through in the aftermath. I think the character's points of view were well presented, especially the often overlooked father's perspective.I need a break after this one so will turn to a sappy romance. :-)

  • Annette Frost
    2019-04-25 09:13

    I liked this book. It looked at grief, forgiveness, and renewal from several perspectives that showed how different people deal with life's tragedies. The ending was satisfying and the was hard to put down.

  • Sonja Randall
    2019-05-11 11:17

    Excellent story about grieve and the way each character deals with their grief and life without a loving child. Old wounds are opened and only by opening and addressing those experiences and expectations the healing process can start.

  • Jamie
    2019-05-16 12:28

    This was a very powerful and touching read. Its hard to imagine anyone ever going through this ordeal, or how someone could ever get over the loss of a child. Let alone deal with life itself in the mix.

  • Sue Ann
    2019-04-26 09:11

    Fantastic book. Absolutely believable characters and story. I was so moved by the story. Although very sad also beautiful. I sobbed through the last third of this especially. This story will stay with me. It is just that kind of book. Simply said it is what a great book is meant to be!

  • Stefanie
    2019-04-22 09:21

    Loved this book! Recommend it to anyone that can handle crying while reading. It is a sad one, but such a great story! I don't read much so to find a book that keeps me interested until the end is hard to find.

  • Cathy Sanders
    2019-05-04 04:15

    I really couldn't put this down. The author clearly knows what she is writing about. I enjoyed how she switched between the characters. I would recommend it to anyone who can handle reading about the death of a child. Its an emotional story.

  • Nicole
    2019-04-29 10:39

    This book was heart breaking. I was really invested in these characters. It's written from the perspective of several first persons. So it jumps around a lot. But I was rooting for every one of them. Well except Greg.

  • Tami Cole
    2019-05-13 10:21

    A very good readA very good readI found this story very touching and it shows us the way life can send us flying in all directions to just land in a better spot in time.

  • Lisa Moctezuma
    2019-04-28 12:26

    I read this book over a year ago, and the characters are still with me. I was so moved by the entire story and the various points of view that I often think about what each of them would say about my day-to-day decisions. An amazing book written beautifully!

  • Mary
    2019-04-22 04:22

    Kindle Price $2.99

  • Barbara
    2019-04-24 06:24

    I enjoyed this book alot. However, it was sad.

  • Bonnie Florek
    2019-04-25 08:18

    Out e breathAmazing. The characters have rich depth and believable traits that make you live and hate them, tell aft then and grieve with them. Beautifully written.

  • Chrissi Johnson
    2019-05-05 06:28

    Very emotional yet predictable story. A couple loses a child and the story follows their journey of grief.

  • Jamie White
    2019-04-23 11:26

    I didn't think I would like this because of the tragedy but I found the characters interesting.

  • Rachael
    2019-05-23 06:33

    This book surprised me, I was really engrossed in the story and felt physically angry, sad, disappointed, and a myriad of other emotions. Well worth the read!

  • Darci
    2019-04-30 08:15

    This book is not well written and the characters are completely monolithic after 2 chapters. I can't believe I finished this.. So silly. And overdone... Ugh.